Sometimes life can be a joke. Sometimes the Universe likes to play tricks on us. And boy have I found that out just recently. Sometimes no matter how positive and happy and thankful we are, life can still suck. Thankfully, those who are positive and happy and thankful can handle it. It's at the point now when I just laugh whenever I have bad luck. What's the use of dwelling on it? Everything always has a way of working out in the end. I have decided to take this time in my life to enjoy my favorite hobbies and go for walks. And why not? It's not like I have anything else to do. I know that my intentions have been set into motion and that things are going my way behind the scenes, even if I don't have much physical proof now.

It seems that every time I decide to forget about certain things from my past, those things come back to haunt me anyway. Now I understand the meaning of "If you want something, let it go". Apparently if you don't want something and let it go, you'll still get it. I guess it was my mistake to move on because of my hatred of the places and situations. I should have just forgiven the past instead of vowing to move on from them only due to the unhappy memories of them. So that is a lesson I wish to share with every one who may be reading this. Take the time to forgive your past, even the events in your past that you wish to forget. If you just try to suppress bad memories and forget about them, they can (and most likely will) come back to haunt you some day. If you truly wish to move on to the next chapter of life, then make sure you completely forgive and cleanse everything and everyone in your past. You must also feel gratitude for those moments for making you stronger.

Also remember to never, ever use the words "never" and "not". If you keep vowing to "never go to that place again" or "not deal with that person again", you most likely will end up doing both. Our subconscious has a strange way of overlooking negative words, and without realizing it we subconsciously vow to "go back to that place and deal with that person again". Using negative words like that also stems from anger, and we will never get ahead in life if we still feel anger toward anything or anyone deep down inside. We will only continue recreating the same situations over and over again with patterns of anger.

There is always hope though. A good exercise for all of us to do is to take the time and write out past memories that make us unhappy, and if it's at all possible, write out one good thing that resulted from each of those situations; even if it's something as simple as "it made me stronger". I have been doing this exercise myself and it has been helping me feel better. I have also learned my lesson about trying to suppress the unhappy times in my past. Once I am confident that I am truly free from my past and that I can move forward, I will try NEW affirmations. I will say "I now choose to be free from that place, and am ready to move forward". This is a lot better than feeling anger and yelling "I'll never go back to that place again! I hated it!"

This is just me ranting and wishing to share about how I plan to overcome some situations, both present and past, in my life. Maybe this will help anyone else who may be having some hard times realize that they're not alone. I wish you the best and I want you to know that no matter what, there is always hope.