Continued from Part One...

That night, kneeling by the edge of my bed, my knobby knees digging into the floor, I asked: "Great Spirit, God, Goddess, Universe, whatever name you choose to go by, please help me. I beg of you. I am on my knees. I am at my lowest low. If you show me my Life Purpose, I will forever be your humble servant." I did not realize, at the time, the intensity nor consequences of the prayer I was making.

Two weeks later, a knock came at my door.

As I opened the door, a pretty, brown-haired woman with gentle eyes stood looking at me. She commanded of me, "Hold out your hands." Looking into my hands and then at my face, she said, "You are not living the life you are meant to live," whereupon I burst into tears.

This woman, who was known as Terry-Linn, did not come to stand on my door step without resistance on my part. Numerous calls from my friend, Pammy, who had experienced Terry-Linn's work, had not yet convinced me that I needed help. It wasn't until I was ready to face my suicidal fantasies of escape that I realized I desperately needed help - and not of the medical sort. I needed spiritual help, spiritual medicine. Pammy's final plea sealed the deal. "Alright, send her over."

Before Terry-Linn gave me a full hand analysis session, she gave a hand analysis presentation to me and the eight or so guests I'd managed to assemble in my living room. After completing her mini-sessions with the guests, we sat down at the table in my barren kitchen, her assistant the only other person in attendance. She proceeded to tell me things that I had only dreamt about.

"Beth, your Life Purpose is essentially love. You are here to experience unconditional love for yourself, and in so doing, give love to others - you will help open their hearts. You will do this as a spiritual teacher, a writer, and a speaker. You will be pleased to hear that with hard work, you will indeed be wealthy and famous, known by millions for changing their lives for the better."

At least that's how I remember it through my tears. I never was able to listen to the taped recording as it somehow got damaged... but I remember that a lot started to make sense - all my existential suffering, ennui and emotional drama. I had move to Los Angeles to pursue an acting career that went nowhere fast and now I understood that my quest for the spotlight was not to play out the role of someone else's life, but to be the star of my own life and to share my discoveries with others as I traveled.

Not long after my session with Terry-Linn, I quit my job to help promote her business and the careers of other artists and healers. That went okay until I realized that I wanted to read hands myself. It was that moment of realization that ultimately set me free to pursue my own vision of success and creative fulfillment. Terry-Linn and I went our separate ways to pursue our own dreams but I'll never forget the part she played in my life. She was my guardian angel, sent from heaven when I had lost all hope.

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